I am trying to study, and I keep finding that math is hard (any kind), and it doesn't get easier(only harder). I am trying to learn these things all in progression (asynchronously):
1.Math for all forms of 3-D implementation (featuring 3-D computer programming in all areas).
2.Vector Calculus and all other forms of Calculus (for radio waves and electric circuits).
I am trying to self-teach myself 3-D programming, and electrical engineering.
The problem is that I get overwhelmed on trying to solve the next steps I don't understand, and I use excess brain energy thinking and failing to understand(much like with other subjects).
The problem is that it just doesn't come easy to me. Not at all
I would like to explore in what other systems are available besides math to succeed in my life (not a career, not a job, but my passion; my drive to do what I am called to do).
I have gained a near concussion from banging my head against the wall trying to work with Linear Algebra entirely from the beginning to the end(by page 8 I was contemplating suicide).
Sorry for such strong messages here, but I just want to know what's wrong with me ... am I just unable to learn math? Why is it such difficulty to simply advance linearly? I always reach points of confusion, try again and again to get past them, and by the time I understand it I'm tired and have lost all dedication, desire, and drive. It's like I am jumping through hoops just to move forward.
I just want to succeed, I try hard, but all forms of math at a certain level astound me with confusion. I feel like I've moved a mountain just to understand some formulae, problems, etc.
1.I am self-teaching, and can't do it any other way, and nobody teaches me but myself.
2.I have a strong desire to learn, but fail inevitably at grasping concepts and succeeding, taking me much longer to get anywhere, much more strain, pain, distress and energy than many others.
What do I do? I leave it all up to you ... how can I get through this?
Specifically, how can I make learning math easier, more successful, and get past difficult obstacles?
- Not a student of life, but a part of life.