I'm an undergrad student majoring in maths in my next semester. Up until the current semester I was able to get very good grades in almost every course and I had a grade average which I think would be placed at the highest position of any "regular" qualitative grade ranking system.
Alas, in the current semester I'm failing miserably. My grades have dropped to the point where I barely manage to pass the courses even at my favourite subjects. What's the point of studying if I don't learn?
The weird thing is I actually think I learned the subjects at which I didn't do good reasonably well. During my time at the university I met lots of colleagues who thought they knew what they were talking about when we discussed courses that we attended together and they were actually clueless. Delusional even. I feel like I am one of them now.
How could I claim to know the subjects well if I barely passed and lots of people did better than me? Reason tells me I don't have a clue about what's going on, but my gut says otherwise.
I'm actually embarrassed about my grades and sad about I disappointing some of my favourite professors. The other day a professor at the department asked me where was I going to take my Masters. I said that I didn't plan on taking it and she told me that I should should because I'm a good student. I felt awful about misleading professors like that. I wish they didn't notice me and didn't think I'm good, which obviously I'm not. How could I even think about taking a masters degree if I can't keep up with undergrad courses?
Has anyone here ever gone through a bad stretch grade wise for no apparent reason?
I don't even know why I'm posting this and know this well get closed really quick. It's OK...