"For every equation you introduce, you cut your audience in half."
This expression, which I believe came from Stephen Hawking, summarizes why I believe that I have a weak foundation in mathematics.
I've always been fascinated by equations; their applications, implications, and histories. I would always wonder where equations came from and how they were developed, meanwhile losing track of the information that teachers were throwing at me. Unfortunately, this is still the case even now :P
As an electrical engineering major/math minor, I feel obligated to understand the concepts that I learn in math at a fundamental level. Unfortunately, I didn't really respect math back in middle school and high school, so my understanding of certain topics in math are fuzzy at best. For example, I've passed Calculus I/II/III and Differential Equations, but I never really understood what I was doing; the calculations I'd make were by rote and not by intuition.
So I'll ask, where can I start? What do you all recommend I do? Any specific books/sources?